Time, slowwww down plix!

How is october almost over already? Goodness, anyone else feel like the year is flying by? I suppose with my head buried in work, it's only right that i haven't noticed *note to self - must get out more*

Having said that, i have had a lovely weekend though! *yay me! lol* There was a drama/music concert at my church last night, and i couldn't come up with a sensible excuse not to go, plus i thought it was time i actually started meeting new people, it's been 3 months in leeds now, i can't pull the newbie card anymore. Of course the promise of midnight crew performing was enough to get me off my couch :D Glad i went, i had a lovely time and met two new people! lol, yay me! hehe..

If you don't know who they are, they are a gospel music band from Lagos Nigeria. They have toured major major cities, even performed on stage with some gospel big names a la Don Moen, Kirk Franklin etc etc I must say though, that they sound a-ma-ziinggg live! Their recordings don't do them justice.

*I really wanted to insert their 'igwe' video in here, but i can't figure out how to do it. But errm, youtube is your friend*

I was on Linda Ikeji's blog and saw this story on street hawkers being flogged and punished. I'm still unable to comprehend that. Like W.T.F?? Honestly, what is the matter with some Nigerians? I mean, how did this come about? Did people actually sit around a table and come up with that nonsense? Did it not cross any one of their minds that perhaps, just perhaps, these poor children did not choose to hawk?! I mean common, what child would choose to be under the scortching Nigerian sun hawking, rather than in a classroom or even home? I don't get it, just don't get it! And these are the people whose mercy we're under, Lord help us all. So much for child protection. I just do not get it!

This is the country I still strongly want to go back to. I've heard it all, from i'm crazy to i'm naive and back down the spectrum again. I've concluded that it's diffcult to explain the longing to go home to someone who's never left home. I mean, how do you make someone understand what it's like to be different, not included, to someone who has never experienced that, especially if they already have the mindset that any other than Nigeria is Nirvana? I only wish i could answer the question that plagues me : what difference can i make and how do i do that? I know my dream, i always have known what my vision is. It's to bring an acceptable standard of healthcare to the common man. The one who can't afford Reddington hospital, who can't afford to see a doctor because he needs to go scavenge for his daily bread. In all my years on earth, nothing upsets me more than a wasted / maimed life due to something so trivial, preventable and treatable. I bow my head in shame everytime i hear of a woman dying in childbirth, or someone dying from malaria. In this present time, it's so unacceptable it's embarrasing.

In a country where the doctors have been on strike in a major city for more than a month and nobody in a position of power or authority to change things gives a rat's ass. Why would they though, they can afford to be flown out of the country to treat 'pericarditis'. Can you tell i'm bitter? mxtchewww

But hey, one step at a time, one day at a time. I'm a firm believer of running with your dream/vision and see where it takes you. Of course, i'm open to suggestions, any suggestion - apart from telling me not to go of course :p

On a completely random note, i won a blog giveaway on the natural lounge! *bb dancing emoticon* I've never won anything before so i was so chuffed! hehe. On another note, i'm burnt sting has closed her blog to un-invited readers. I love her blog and used to go everyday through her blog list as well. oh well #shrug. If you're reading sting, i'm getting withdrawal symptoms :(

Have a lovely week ahead everyone and don't forget your happiness is your responsibility not anyone else's. No one is superhuman enough to make and keep you happy. The energy you put out there is what is reflected back at you. So smile a little and help others out, you'll get that love back shaken, pressed down and many times over.

Enitan
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Still here

*cough - blowing away dust and removing cobwebs* jeez, i haven't been here for a minute. A very apt representation of my life really - dead social and emotional life. All I've been doing is work-sleep-eat-work-sleep-eat-work-sleep-eat..yeah you get the picture

Might explain why i'm so homesick, i really really want to go home *sulking* I've been indulging in my visions of setting up shop at home, even brainstorming fundraising events and such. #dontjudgeme if we don't have dreams and visions what do we have? ----->

The advent of super technology sure has its downside, what the hell is going on with written language? Messanger and twitter means that people can't spell anymore and it irks me to no end! I mean, the meaning of the apostrophe has been forgotten! It's = It is, I'm = I am, Am = am, check and cheque are not one and the same! sheesh!

I'm on a day off today as i'm working all through from tomorrow until friday and my bleep won't fucking shut up! Stupid long range pagers, there are other doctors in the hospital for pete's sake! I'm taking the damn battery out right now, and no nobody will die because i'm not there, it's a flipping hospital #rollingeyes

Anyone else irritated by chirstmas adverts already in october? hiss..no wonder people don't know the meaning of christmas anymore! okay, rant over :)

You know you've grown up when you go through issues calmy and not stressed out, same issues that used to cause you to sin against God and man. I don't know of any bigger stress than financial issues. I've been there, done that, got the tee-shirt. I've gone from being homless, broke, foodless, all three at the same time some christmases ago, gone through having to walk an hour to uni and back because i didn't have money to get the bus etc etc. The fact that I graduated in spite of all that and that i'm working in spite of the issues that threatened to prevent that are the reasons why i'll never grumble or complain. They are the reasons why I cannot dare not to give thanks to God ever in my life again.

I'm a priviledged child, I've always known that and always been thankful for that. I'm saying this because my dad just came through for me money wise. My ass has been pseudo-broke. I say pseudo cuz I have the money, but can't spend it, because thanks to immigration rules, i have to have over a thousand pounds in my account for a minimum of a month prior to applying for a visa renewal. Imagine just sitting there looking at money and not being able to touch it *hiss* This is why i'm moving back to my own country asap! Anyway, credit card maxxed out, bills pouring in, and your girl is a calm as calm can be! No worries, no panic, niente! And I realised that that calm is from my absolute trust in God and from my experience with His nature of showing up just on time and not a minute sooner or later! *bbm dancing emoticon* I'd been avoiding my post box *hehe* bit the bullet and went to open today, not suprised to find final demands and notices..no worries..opened up my account to pay one off, what do i find? more than enough to pay off alll bills and cards from dearest daddy!and i didn't even break a sweat! *bbm dancing emoticon* repeat after me: God is never late, He is always on time! I'm so thankful, so so thankful!

I found these questions on sting's blog and wanted to do them. I don't have the patience for 100, so i'm only gonna do a quarter, enjoy. Hope y'all have been doing alright, don't forget to embrace the day and don't permit daily issues to rob you of your joy. Afterall, worrying doesn't solve anything, you might as well spend that time living your life. Trust me, i know.

1. How old will you be in five years?
     28
2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today?
    Myself
3. How tall are you?
       I have no idea, never had a reason to find out really :p
4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?
      taking some time off work and hopefully going to Edinburgh *hopefully*
5. What’s the last movie you saw?
     Inception - best movie i've seen in a while!
6. Who was the last person you called?
    My dearest brother kunle
7. Who was the last person to call you?
      My work-mate
8. What was the last text message you received?
     From my friend Marian, telling me about a book she's about to edit 
9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail?
    My friend in detriot
10. Do you prefer to call or text?
      Call..i hate texting and chatting, they're so impersonal 
11. What were you doing at 12am last night?
      In bed
12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced?
      Mum's widowed
13. When is the last time you saw your mom?
       Sept 29th 2010
14. What color are your eyes?
       Brown
15. What time did you wake up today?
       Not at 6am! The joys of a day off :)
16. What are you wearing right now?
      Grey sweats and a white tee
17. What is your favorite Christmas song?
      God bless ye merry gentleman, let nothing you dismay :) I looveee christmas! I'm like a child in a candy store :)
18. Where is your favorite place to be?
      On the beach ..no contest
19. Where is your least favorite place to be?
     Supermarket/shopping mall..too many people jare 
20. Where would you go if you could go anywhere?
      home! Naija! 

saturday randoms

1. I have not slept this goooodddd in such a lonnng time! *stretching*. That's what a night back in your bed after 2 months on the sofa will do to you

2. I haven't cooked in a long time. I'm psyching myself up to make lasagne this weekend

3. I'm thoroughly fed up with some guy who feels the best way to get me to go out with him is to send me messages 24/7

4. My hair's grown! It's long enough to canerow now :)

5. I've been suffering from the grass is greener syndrome lately, i need to water my own damn garden

6. Looking forward to a trip to Edinburgh *woohoo* dunno if i should crash with michael or stay in a b&b. Not because michael and i are not cool like that, just because, oh i dunno

7. I miss naij, i miss naij a lot. I can't wait to get sometime to go, I can't wait to relocate either

8. I  have discipline and dilligence issues so i'm wondering how i'm gonna get all i planned for this weekend done *places hand on heart* so help me God

9. No i don't miss my mum - yet

10. I don't have a tenth random..tee hee :)

Have a lovely weekend guys, don't forget to live in and savour every moment because life's in the journey not the destination

Enitan
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mum's gone #sob

It only hit me as I was in the elevator that my mum was actually crying and had not in fact developed a sudden cold. What stunned me the most was my reaction to that - abruptness..have I introduced myself as one with issues yet? If you didn't know, now you do.

Mum came visiting three months ago, yeah you heard me right, threeeee months! Hehe..but I only had her over at mine for two months.. I threw such a strop big time. Not that I don't like my mum, but we aint got that kinda relationship. One of her under.g moves was that the two months would be kind of a 'bonding' session with me *rolls eyes* hehe

Anyhoo, I've learnt and grown in leaps and bounds since she's been at mine. I've put a leash on my temper and my legendary inpatience has cooled down a bit thank God. The biggest plus has been the daily home cooked meals after a long day at work, I'm gonna miss that!

It's gonna be odd going home tonight to an empty flat for the first time in two months. I dunno if ill miss her yet, we'll see.it'll prob hit me when I get home, at the same time I've missed my own company.

I hope she's had a lovely time though, my bitachness regardless. I did ask her to leave tomm so I could see her off, tht woman's as stubborn as me. So I have to make do with a goodbye over the phone in the middle of a ward round.

Anyhoo, work time. Ill put up a coherent post later

Have a lovely friday y'all, and yay! Its payday!

My name is Enitan, and I have anger issues

Not that I'm tryna pronounce anger on my life, but some things get me soooo riled up. I was over at jaguda.com reading an article when i came across the number 1 thing that never fails to piss me off, and it's just a word..a seemingly innocent word, but..

1. The word RIPE..if you're not referring to fruit, for the love of everything good, don't ever refer to me or a woman as ripe! For example, 'Enitan, you're 2x years old and working, you're RIPE for marriage' ewwww...i'm gagging even as i type, makes my skin crawl!

2. This trend of 'african print' being the latest thing in fashion. Just because white people have woken up to the beauty of ankara and kente, we're supposed to bend over backward and agree that it's the IN thing? Bitch, it's been the 'in' thing before your ancestors were born! Hisss, stick to your polyester and leave my ankara off your skin thank you very much!

3. Having to repeat myself..am I the only one who gets hacked off when you have to repeat yourself? Especially when I'm speaking with my mum. Sometimes I wonder if she honestly doesn't hear me or just doesn't listen. EVERYTIME!  I really hate repeating myself.

4. The Nigerian get-married-or-die-trying and get-married-or-live-the-rest-of-your-life-ashamed mentality. Enough said

5. Following on from the above, the Nigerian he's-a-man-he's-allowed-to-cheat-and-not-get-called-out-on-it mentality

6. Bad customer service! Oh my goodness, few things make my blood boil! Err, i'm bringing my money to you and you have the nerve to give me lip?! -------> I move on to the next service provider sharply!

7. Being asked obvious questions. 'Enitan, how much's the train fare from london to leeds?' Mate, you're computer and internet literate right? *rolls eyes* #thatisall

Of course, a truck of load of other b.s piss me off, but these are the ones guaranteed to get me steaming! Trust your weekend's been great. I've had a good time doing absolutely fuck all today..hehe..my precious moments of laziness :)

Enjoy the rest of the weekend and remember, 'don't wait for a hit to make your life, make your life a hit' *cheesy much but true :P*

Enitan
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It's just a little crush

I have a crush? I'm crushing on someone? :O :O How is this even possible? I'm too old for this *shock* My goodness, lol, i haven't been here in so long, i'm suprised! My first crush was when i was in SS1 *talk about a late bloomer!* Juve was my type - tall and skinny, funny too :). Grew out of that after a while only to realise he fancied me at the time too, years later..lol..wasted opportunity. I'm racking my brain right now and i honestly cannot remember crushing on anyone else after that *celebrities don't count* Oh my days! In my 23 years, i've only had one crush? What is wrong with me?!

Now that i'm no longer an oblivious teenager, i don't quite know what to do with this and i don't like it either. Trust life to be complicated; my second crush *let's call him H* is across the atlantic and..wait for it..in a relationship! Yep..the joys

H and I have been friends for yonks, i don't actually remember the first time we met. He's my big brother's really good friend so we saw a lot of each other, and still do when i'm back home. Which unfortunately is not a lot these days. We certainly clicked, hung out a lot,had fun. But that was it. I certainly wasn't thinking of a relationship, neither was he *or so i thought*. We've always kept in touch too; we hear from each other at least twice a week. Pretty good friendship even though i say so myself.

I noticed something was wrong when he told he was seeing someone and i was completely crushed. I mean absolutely gutted. I guess that's prob how he felt when i was seeing the ex. Anyway, we were having a conversation a few days ago when it transpires that evidently, he'd been into me for a long time but due to the 'ross.chandler.monica' situation, i was 'generally off limits anyway'

I'm like rightttt....so you're saying nothing ever happened cuz of the unspoken rule of not dating ur friend's sister? riigghtt...and then he hits me back with the 'you broke my heart when you started dating ur ex'..and i'm like, mate you know me. You know i'm completely useless with subtle signs and shit, you didn't tell me you liked me, how the hell was i supposed to know?!

Oh well, all that's water under the bridge anyway. He's seeing someone, and he must really like her. I know him well enough to know that he won't date someone he's not into, which just makes me dislike the poor girl whoever she is. I can't believe i've succumbed to jealously and not liking someone i don't even know *wry smile*. Nothing's going to happen, i'm not about to get into another long distance relationship and most importantly, i suspect all this is some kind of 'reactive crush'. You know, cuz i found out he had a thing for me, i had a thing for him, and now i'm imaginning things and letting myself 'feel things'...bah! feelings are for wimps and emotions are fickle!

I'm gonna man up and sort my ish out! If only i knew how..i'm open to suggestions 

In the meantime, i'm covering the weekend night shifts..yep i'm at work friday, saturday and sunday night..I need to go jump in the shower and hop to it..gosh i need a holiday

Have a fantastic weekend guys and remember not too worry so much, nothing's ever be accomplished by worrying. Do what you can, and let the universe sort the rest out.

Enitan
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And following! :D

I have two followers! Yipee! Hi guys *excited wave*

Ok that is all, #bye

:D

Enitan
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